Coping with chronic pain.

So a few blog posts ago, I posted about having a load of tests done. 

Anyway, months and months of waiting and being in agonising pain. We have finally gotten somewhere. 

I have been diagnosed with "probable psoriatic arthritis". Psoriatic arthritis is arthritis with rheumatoid factors and the skin condition psoriasis on top. It is the rarest type of juvenile arthritis. 

Arthritis is classed as chronic pain as it only gets worse as you get older. 

Symptoms are similar in most people but the pain can vary. My symptoms consist of swelling, inflammation and tenderness, lots of clicking, stiffness of joints and just lots of discomfort. 

Today I saw a specialist in psoriatic arthritis who said I have a rarer type of the condition in the fact that it also affects the soft tissue and ligaments around the joint. 

After lots of X-rays, blood tests and a steroidal injection in my bum! I am in a lot of agony but hopefully it will work. 

I will keep the blog updated but also to let people know that if you are suffering with something similar, it will get better! Keep pushing to get results and it may take a few months but its worth it in the end! 

Love

Hannah xxx

Beauty must haves.

Hi all! 

I must admit it's been a while since I've posted. I've been so so busy working and starting back at college and also having lots of trips to the doctors/hospitals! Fun!

For this blog I thought I'd talk about some of my new beauty discoveries and some old loved ones. 

Beauty is a topic that is so open and wide ranged that it's hard to find the most perfect product to suit you. I've had so much trouble recently finding products that suit me whether it being the high end products or the drugstore equivalent. 

First of all, face scrubs! I purchased a soap and glory face scrub a few months ago. I utterly love soap and glory's products and have a few of them (Dr Spot, You won't believe your eyes, and Archery). However it was totally not suited to my skin as it suits more oily skin and I have dry/combination. It cost me about £8 and I ended up giving it to a friend as it was such a big bottle with hardly any use! I then found a simple face scrub which cost about £4 and I can honestly say I've noticed a massive difference! I use it a few times a week; and with it having rice granules to help exfoliate the skin and remove dead skin cells, my skin feels so much smoother! 

Moving on to hair- I have been using Wella's Luxe products (shampoo, mask and oil). The oil is brilliant and I can't fault it, however recently I've noticed the shampoo and mask haven't really done a lot and don't help my frizzy hair. They are also very expensive to buy! (£20 ish online for each one- oil £13). So I went to boots and brought a tresemmé keratin smooth conditioner to replace the mask to see if it would help with the frizz (it says it does) and after only one use today, it has honestly made all the difference! It's stayed straight and hasn't frozen up when being outside. For £5 it is definitely worth it! 

Next is a mask that I got in my first subscription of GlossyBox. Glossy box is a monthly subscription where you get a load of beauty products in a box delivered (mainly full size) of very high end products. You only pay £13 inc postage which to me- was a bargain. One thing that I utterly adored that came with it is the Maria Nila Luminous Colour Masque. It's great for coloured hair (mine has full highlights) and it helps maintain the colour for longer and I've totally noticed the difference and so have my friends and family. This is usually retailed at £20 ish so to have it in a £13 subscription with 5 other products was pretty good! 

Next is foundation. I brought a MAC foundation and I loved it at first however it soon became apparent it wasn't for me and my skin looked very blotchy and it just didn't feel right. I went to find a new foundation in boots last week, and I am so picky with foundation! I went to the No7 counter and had my colour "taken" with this very cool machine that picks up the pigmentation in your cells to match the perfect colour. The lady was so lovely and gave me a few days worth of a sample so I could apply it myself and see if I liked it. I brought it yesterday and used it for the first time today and I honestly love it. It's suitable for all skin and works amazing o my dry/combination skin. It's a medium coverage but is very build able and lasts all day too! I'm so happy with this. It's about £15 but I got a £3 off voucher which I used which helped with the price. But still very affordable. 

I hope you enjoyed this blog! And hopefully you can try some of these products too (I definitely recommend singing up to GlossyBox!!) 

Hannah 

xxx

London bound.

Hello everyone!

It's been a while since I've posted but I have been rather busy. 

Yesterday, I came back off a trip where I stayed in London for a few days. I honestly felt so at home and I really want to move down there one day. 

On our first day, we went for a wonder around Covent Garden as that's where our hotel was situated (The Strand Palace Hotel). Covent Garden, to me, was one of the less busier places in London but had such a buzz and a fantastic environment which made me feel warm and fuzzy inside! We then went to Jamie's Italian for tea and I had the best bruschetta I've ever had!! I've been a massive fan of Jamie and his cooking so was so happy we got to go!

On the second day, we went sightseeing. Considering I'd never been before and it was a bit daunting going to all these big places, I just loved it. And I felt so so patriotic haha! We firstly went on a River Thames cruise and got to see some of the famous buildings and I managed to get some fab photos! (I got an iPhone 6 the day before we left). 

We then went on the London Eye, and even though I'm a bit scared of heights, I took it all in and again, was utterly amazed at the sights you can see. It was so so amazing and if anyone visits London, you should definitely go on both!! 

After the London Eye, we went shopping in Harrods, and by gosh it was amazing but so busy!! We brought a few goodies from there and I brought a lovely keyring too! 

On our last day, we just spent the time going shopping. Firstly we went to Carnaby. Now for my close friends and family, they know how much I go on about this certain shop. It's not just a shop, it's so much more and I have decided I must move in there! It is the one and only Choccywoccydoodah. I can honestly say it's everything I dreamed and more. I was amazed by it all and didn't want to leave! We then went to Oxford street and had a look around Selfridges, Primark, Pandora, Lush and brought lots of things (I may do a London Haul for that?) 

London was such an amazing experience and I do want to move there. 

Anyway that's enough blabbing! 

I hope you enjoyed this. I really did!

Lots of love,

Hannah 

Xxx

A girl and her horse.

Hello you lovely lot. 

This blog post is going to be a little bit about Victor and how we've been getting on since having him back. 

So I've had him back for almost 3 weeks and it honestly feels like I never sold him. Our bond and trust is still there which is just the most amazing feeling. In July, I will have had/ known him for 4 years. Now that is an achievement in itself and I can't believe how long it's been! 

When I first got Victor I'd never dream of being where we are now, and as long as my mum see's sense and let's me, we will hopefully be going out a bit this summer. 

Vic hasn't been in much by work over the past year (let's face it- he isn't the easiest  to ride outside of the school!) so I've tried a new feed to help with condition, muscle and give him a bit of oomf without going crazy. And with those who know him- my little welshie can be very crazy! 

The feed he has been on for about a week now is Baileys No 4 which is top line conditioning cubes. I have already noticed a massive difference, under saddle and by just looking at him. So hopefully this will help with getting him fitter. He is also back on Seaweed which he was on before I sold him which made such a difference to his health and coat and provided extra nutrients and vitamins and helped provide strong hooves. 

Last week Lottie and Beth came to see him for the first time in a year and had a little jump. It was very hot and he tried his best and certainly flew some jumps and Beth and Lottie got some cracking photos. 

On Sunday (just gone) I decided to school him in the jump paddock. I wasn't expecting to jump a lot but we had a go  at some triples. And by God did he fly. I think the end fence was about 1m5 ish and he felt the best he's felt jumping for a while, and very responsive too! But still needs some more fitness in him which will come in time and I'm in no rush. 

I never expected to get another horse but getting Victor back was honestly the best decision I've made recently. It's so lovely to have his face back in my daily routine- especially as he was always there when I needed him. 

Here are a few recent photos. Hopefully more to come over the summer! 

Lots of love and speak soon,

Hannah xxx

Getting back my pony.

Okay so today was the day when I brought back Victor. As explained partially in my previous blog, Victor was my old pony. He had literally been my rock through some pretty hard times. So when he came back for sale, I jumped at the chance and everything just fell into place really. I am honestly over the moon and have hardly slept recently. Today we moved to our new stable and then had a little jump ready for the yard show on Tuesday where we will have a go at some clear rounds. We then went for a ponder round the track, and then went back to his new stable which he found so exciting and with every russle in my tack room, his head was round the door seeing if there was any available food! I then turned him out in his new paddock where he didn't even take his head away from the grass- controlled by his stomach! I had a message off my friend about 8:30pm saying he was exhausted and had fallen asleep standing up the cutie! So now that me and Vic are back together, our partnership will continue to grow and I will write some blogs based on our times together! 

Here are some photos from today,

Love

Hannah 

xxx

Getting my pony back!

So as most of you may know through facebook, I received some very exciting news. 

I got a phone call saying that Victor, a horse I sold over a year ago, was up for sale. Through no fault of his own, but he just didn't want to be a riding school pony and wasn't suited to it which is fair enough. He has been spoilt rotten the past year and I can't thank Denise enough. Especially putting up with me trying to get money to buy him back!

So I'm 18 in two weeks and I'm very lucky to be getting some money for my birthday which I am going to use to buy him back. 

I honestly have not been sleeping I have been that excited. And what makes it even better- I have a stable too!!! Victors first proper stable of his own since I've had him! 

I am very much looking forward to the summer and riding most days when I'm not working. Just so happy to have my little baby back!! 

Here are some of my favourite photos of us.  

Lots of love

Hannah 

Xxx

Past Inspirations

Today, I wanted to talk about one particular past inspiration that was a massive, massive part of my life up until recently. That inspiration was horses. And one little fella in particular. This is the story of Victor.

It was May 2011 when I finally convinced my parents and my grandparents to let me buy a horse. I'd had experiences of having horses on loan, and had brought a horse that was miss-sold so I wanted to make sure my next horse was the perfect horse. I was only 14, a fairly experienced rider but still had an awful lot to learn. I was scrolling through endless adverts on Horsemart and Preloved, when I came across this guy:
"Ffynnonfelys Victors Last- 14.2hh, Welsh D 7yo gelding out of Ebbw Victor.
Loving and kind natured horse, currently jumping 3ft classes, done cross country schooling, hacks out in company fine but can be nervous on his own, good to shoe etc etc etc" (his ad is still on a facebook page from 2011!!!)

He sounded perfect, and just what I was looking for. So I went to view him and took my best friend Molly with me. I instantly fell in love with him and after a few more viewings and a 5 stage vet test, he was delivered to me at my current stables in Ingestre.

At ingestre I had almost 2 years with Victor before moving closer to home. In those two years I began to realise how much of a challenge a green horse was. And how inexperienced he was. And me for that matter. After a good few bumps in the road, after a year and a half we eventually gelled and it felt like nothing could come between us and we trusted each other entirely.

It then came to the point when I wanted to go competing. After a nasty accident, vic was not keen on trailers and travelling so we hacked half an hour to Stafford Show which is held in Hixon. In 2012 we became Reserve Champion in the Pre-Novice Horse (2ft3-2ft6) which for our first season competing was an utter achievement and I honestly felt on top of the world.

However there came a time where I had to move closer to home ready for my GCSE's and A Levels so I moved to Molly's yard, Buxtons, in 2013. Little did I know that that summer was going to be one of the best summers of my life. Molly had her pony, Candy. Candy and Victor became best friends and we rode together pretty much every day. We had jumping sessions (where I made molly not be a pussy and jump over a metre;) and where I jumped 1m20), we went for 3 hour + hacks all over the chase, we genuinely had the best summer together and had so much fun and so many memories.

Especially when Molly and I spontaneously decided to buy another horse each. Well Molly wanted to for ages, I on the other hand had just brought a trailer, but then sold it in order to buy Poppy. A welsh D X Appaloosa. And it was one of the best decisions I had made. She was "Lightly Backed" (not really) and needed completely restarting. After weeks of groundwork to build up muscle and fitness and gain trust, the rebacking commenced and buy the end of the summer she was leading hacks and was bombproof, and could jump a metre course. She had just turned 5 that summer and wasn't broken in long so I was very impressed. She continued to amaze me with how willing she was to learn and give me her best in every schooling, jumping and hacking session. So much that the winter of 2013-2014, she amazed me completely by jumping 1m20. I was gobsmacked by her potential.

In October 2013, I suffered a bad fall off Victor, (my fault not his) and had to sell them both due to me not physically being able to look after them, let alone ride them. But I managed to sell them and they have both stayed on the same yard and are both being spoilt rotten.

I do hope to get another horse in a year or so when I've finished my course at college and when I have a proper job. One that I can afford to spoil but also get out competing again as I really do miss the buzz. However, my health is paramount and has to come first.

Here are some photos of my inspirations.
Lots of Love
Hannah xxx

                                                                  Poppy jumping 1m20.

                                                                  Gorgeous ponies.

                                                                Victor giving kisses.

                                                                  Poppy being awesome.

                                                                 Victor jumping 1m5/10

                                                              Vic being awesome again.

                                                          Jumping 3ft without a saddle.

Something Quite Scary

If I mention panic attacks to people, not everyone understands.

Some people think you're silly for worrying over things, others know what you're going through. 

I used to get panic attacks very frequently when I was younger in Primary and High school, because I was severely bullied and never had anyone to talk to about it, I used to wake up in the middle of the night and have some pretty big panic attacks. 

When I was old enough to understand what they were, and had also learnt to stand up for myself, the panic attacks slowly went away. 

However, as I am writing this at 4 in the morning, I have just experienced one. 

Now this scared me way more than usual because I haven't had one in I don't know how long! I didn't even remember what they felt like until halfway through. 

I don't know what brought it on entirely, but I have been stressing about health issues and my personal life for a few months. And yesterday I really wasn't feeling well and it got worse through the night. 

I get tonsillitis quite frequently however this batch has come on pretty hard. (Normally it takes a few days to develop) 

So I woke up because my throat was in agony so I went to the toilet and had a drink and washed my mouth out (as awesome as that sounds) and then got into bed and sat up to have a strepsil for my throat. 

A few mins later my head started spinning, as I get migraines often too, so I thought I'd get up to get some ibuprofen off my desk. As I began to sit up, I just couldn't breathe, I started shaking and sweating and my mouth went numb. I then started crying uncontrollably and it just got worse. It lasted for about 10 mins before luckily my mum heard me (only because my dog could sense that something was wrong so started barking bless him) and her and dad came in to calm me down, and the gave me some cold water and tissues! 

I apologise for waking everyone up at 4am!!

I'm sat recovering now and just ache everywhere and my migraine has come on even worse! 

I just wanted to write this down before I forgot so I could look back at what happened. I don't think there's any way I can control them but as long as I try to stay calm when it happens, maybe next time I won't be as worried. 

How do you all deal with panic attacks? 

Any tips would be much appreciated. 

Anyway I best try and get back to sleep! 

Lots of

Love,

Hannah xxx

Planning, Inspirations and the Future

Hello internet!

Sorry I haven't posted this on Monday (usual weekly blog day). I have been a bit stuck for inspiration these past few days as I've had a stressful week sorting my life out!!

It then dawned on me, that I really want to do more aspiring things. I want to do things I haven't before (as long as I am medically able to).

I love the excitement you get by thinking of a new challenging task to complete, and even more excitement when you plan it. For example it is nothing spontaneous but Molly and I are planning to go shopping to Birmingham for our 18th Birthdays. Not as fancy as Paris, I know, but somewhere where there are Ted Baker shops and where I don't have to travel far (I cannot stand trains or long journeys) is utterly perfect. And what makes the idea fantastic, is the fact we will be taking our boyfriends with us.

I had a thought the other day, more like a strange wave of realisation, that life is really to short and I should do more things that make me happy, rather than wondering "What if?" all the time. As I know looking back on things, I will definitely think that and wish I would have done something about it.

So I have decided to make a "bucket list" type thing.. I may not do everything this year, but there is absolutely no point in rushing. I want to enjoy life. So here it goes...

Number 1- Start a YouTube Vlogging channel. As much as I love typing in my blog, I'd love to be able to explain things better in a video as it captures true emotion and pictures rather than just words.

Number 2- Buy a PROPER DSLR camera. I so so regret selling my lovely, lovely Canon camera at the end of the summer so I would love to have a camera to capture everyday moments and my inspirations, and use it to vlog on my channel

Number 3- Go to Birmingham with Molly and the boys. Obviously this is an easy one to tick off as that is what we are doing and I cannot blooming wait!!

Number 4- Go on holiday with Nick this year to somewhere hot. I best get saving then!!

Number 5- Visit Brighton and go to Choccywoccydoodah and stuff myself with cake. This is a must. If you have heard of this magnificent company, you will understand why.

Number 6- Get fitter. I really do need to loose some timber and get fitter to enjoy life more.

Number 7- Go to Cheshire Oaks and buy some Ralph Lauren clothes. Nick brought me a few tops from here last September so I'd love to get some more.

Number 8- Learn more make up techniques. I'd love to continue learning about the wonders of make up and buy some more high end products such as Mac and Too Faced, and even when we go to Birmingham- have a make up session with one of the Mac Artists!

Number 9- Go to the beach with all my college friends and camp out under the stars. As bad as this will be for my back it would be utterly amazing to do this.

Number 10- Go road tripping. I don't know when or where. This is the last of my list because it isn't as achievable. But Nick and I have talked about going on a road trip to somewhere like Australia and do a number of activities like scuba diving (my ultimate dream).

So yes maybe the last one will be a bit more difficult but never impossible. I will add more when I tick more off and I will document it all right here.

I hope you enjoyed this weeks blog and please like/share etc etc if you did!

Lots of love my angels
Hannah xxx

Tests, tests and more tests- Part 1!

Hello internet!

I hope you are all well and are still enjoying the blog's (sorry if you are not..)

Today's blog isn't so much about inspiration but trying to stay positive..

In October 2013, I was out riding on my old horse Victor, stupidly without a saddle (although I had done this many times before) and we were happily trotting along until a big branch came along which I had to duck under. At this point, Vic trod on a bird and quite frankly was utterly startled at the sound it made, and of course had to spook. But he spooked in the opposite way that I was leaning, causing me to happily slide off and unfortunately land on a tree stump (thanks Vic!!!)

He didn't go very far luckily and there was a gate preventing him to go on the main road thank god, even though I was in excruciating amounts of pain, I was way more concerned about him, as fellow horse owners will tell you, their horse will always come first!

Anyway, fast forward almost 18 months on, and already some endless tests, I am still in excruciating pain and still have no idea what is wrong with me!!

Everyday is a struggle to do normal things, like bend down to put my shoes on. Not just with my back, but with other things too (which I don't want to mention until after we find out what's wrong) but being a cripple at not even 18 is super fun.. NOT!

So today was the day for a spontaneous walk in test. Part one of finding out what is wrong with me. Yes today I went to the haematology department to have a wonderful thing called a blood test. After all the blood tests I've had and the amount of needles stuck in me, I would of thought by now that I would of grown some balls and be used to it by now.. But no... I am still utterly terrified and last time I almost fainted. However today was positive and a real turning point because I did not faint and I did not cry. I am still in shock at how well I handled it haha!!

This may sound utterly stupid to you but after years and years of tests, I don't exactly enjoy it more!!

So part 1 is over thank god.. Just part 2 now... The MRI test... Have any of you had an MRI test before??? I am in all honesty shitting myself purely to the fact I get very claustrophobic (all thanks to a very overcrowded Take That concert in 2011) I have never been the same in small spaces with little room to breath.

I will let you know how I get on with that although I do have to wait another 2 weeks or so, and when the results come back I shall hopefully be able to explain what has been happening!

Until then I may hopefully pluck up the courage to do a vlog.. Yes a VLOG!! Watch this space....

Lots and lots of love,

Hannah
xxx

Time for a change!

Hello Internet!!

I hope you are all well and I hope you are enjoying these blogs so far. I wanted to do something a bit different in this blog...

It will still be linked into my inspirations but will include one of my favourite things... shopping!!!

Now this isn't about clothes or make up shopping strangely, it is to do with homeware. Yes, homeware!!! I do have a passion for interior design and I love finding lots of trinkets and bits and bobs to place around my room. As I am still living at home, sadly I am only allowed to decorate my room.

My room is a very small box bedroom, so a few years ago I had a built in bed, wardrobe and draws put in to maximise the space. Since then it hasn't been changed, and recently I noticed just how dark this decor made my room, so I convinced my mum to let me get all new bedding and curtains and she said yes!

I just love the colour blue. An awful lot. Not just any blue, but duck egg and baby blue (even my laptop is blue!!!)

This change of heart came about the other day when my mum brought me a new chair (yes, a chair) for my room (my old one was very broken..) and I felt inspired to redecorate completely.

Its soooo comfy and fits in nicely with my room! My mum got this from TK Maxx and it was in the sale! And it is absolutely gorgeous.

So then Mum and I decided to go to Dunelm to have a look at what colour schemes they had.

We found the most gorgeous duck egg blue scheme with birds and bird cages on and my god it makes my room look amazing! I will post those pictures now.

These are the duvet, pillows and bed cover

My whole room (as small as it is) looking spacious and bright!

My lovely curtains! 

My cushions that read "a little bird told me..." "... that you love me." which is so so lovely and sweet!

My lovely lamps, also in the sale!!

A lovely little box to put my lotions and potions in!

I must be obsessed with photo frames!! Have far too many, but I had to have this one as was in the sale!

Those are the things I brought yesterday, I hope you liked this blog, as I loved feeling inspired to redecorate and I think it looks so much better than before (just wish I'd of taken a before photo!!)

Let me know what you think and follow me if you enjoy these blogs!!

Thank you, muchos love

Hannah
xxx

Inspirations and Positivity...

Hello Internet!

I'm back again.. haha! Thank you to the people who have taken to time to view my blog and read what I have posted, and to the people who have told me that they love what I have written (thank you Mitch!)

This is going to be my first blog to do with my name and meaning behind my blogs: what inspires me. This blog is going to be about how to feel inspired by what YOU do yourself. I'll explain that in a bit more detail as I go on.

I have never been a very confident person at all. I never used to be happy with the way I looked, and from what other people said through out my school life, they weren't particularly happy with my looks either. I don't want to go into too much detail as the fear of being judged for being too open is still daunting at the moment. However, every day presented a new task, whether I could hold back the tears from the never ending comments about my weight and looks or not, was the worst task.

This happened from a very early age. when I was in year 2, so about 7 years old, and has only recently stopped since I have left school and have blocked those negative people out of my life.

Eventually, I thought enough was enough. I was inspired by mainly my Mum and my Grandma. They have both been through their traumatic life experiences and have taught me to except myself for myself and that if I surround myself by positive people, it will outweigh the negative things.

So one night, I stood in front of my mirror, and focused on my flaws. I kept staring, and eventually after 20 minuets, I started to look for the more positive things.
I liked the way I plucked my eyebrows that week.
I liked the way that my hair looked that day.
I liked the way my eyes had changed colour to a more hazel colour.
Eventually I went through all the flaws I thought I had that had been put into my head in the past few years, and began to love myself for what I looked like and that I shouldn't have to change just because I'm not someone's cup of tea. I'm not saying I'm drop dead gorgeous and perfectly pretty, and I know I won't be, but it was a start. A start that I was finally beggining to love myself.

So when I underwent this positive change of view, I went onto YouTube and began discovering YouTubers like Zoella, Tanya, and especially Louise, who a fellow curvy girl like myself, showed me the right way to dress for my figure. And as time went on I found out what I felt good in but made sure that I was still comfortable. They inspired me to love myself further which has been such a challenging task, especially when your brain has tattooed into it that I'd never be loved or accepted for how I looked. This change of lifestyle then gave me the confidence to be happy with who I am, which then enabled me to find my love, Nick.

So what I'm saying is that if you are reading this and are feeling low at the moment. Take a deep breath and look in the mirror. Sometimes the hatred that we receive has blinded us so we can't find our beauty, so by looking in the mirror and being only positive, can help us reveal our own beauty. And if you honestly feel like nothing on the outside is appealing to your eyes, don't worry, that will come in time. Don't be put off, keep staring in that mirror. Because at the end of the day, we are all individually beautiful. Inside and out.

Never let anyone tell you that you aren't good enough. Find the things that inspire you and keep moving forwards.

Much love,
Hannah
xxx

Introductions are in order...

Hello internet!

I have decided after much thought, that I should start a blog. Now yes this is a thing that most people do just to "follow the crowd" however I have been thinking about it for a while and just never had the creativity or means to start one.

2015 is upon us, and 2014 was a heck of a learning curve for me. My name is Hannah and I am currently 17 years old. In 2014 I had to grow up very quickly and I dealt with all kinds of stress (some making me rather ill). My life changed dramatically and quickly, and nothing seemed to stay the same, which for me, a girl used to consistency, was a big shock to the system. I had to loose my two best friends, Victor, who I had for almost 3 years and Poppy, who I had for almost a year. Yes they were horses, but they were my rocks. They were there for me when certain people weren't. They took my mind off the changes and growing up. They were mainly sold due to my bad back from falling off Victor which the problem is yet to be resolved, a year later!

In my past year of growing up, I've made more friends who I am very close to, but have also come close to friends I had drifted apart from. The main one being my best friend Molly. She is horse-mad like myself, and we used to do everything together before we parted ways when I sold my horses. Later in 2014, end of September time, Molly helped me make the spontaneous decision of quitting my apprenticeship and going to college to fulfil a course which I would enjoy, Animal Management. I have met a small group of friends in this course who are always there for me, a mix of boys and girls, and we are all a very close bunch which is lovely as I have never had that before. So thank you Molly for your crazy, encouraging words and enabling me to be the happiest I have been this past year.

With last year being very difficult (especially from August onwards), I wouldn't of been anywhere without my lovely boyfriend Nick, whom I have been with for over a year now. We are two peas in a pod and he is my best friend as well as my loved one and I will be eternally grateful for his help.

Anyway now that mushy boring stuff is out of the way...

I have always wanted to vlog. Recently I have become much more into beauty and the wonders that make up can offer and also how to accept myself and love myself and my flaws!!! However I cannot stand the thought of filming myself as I know I would say something very goofy, which is why I have decided to write down my feelings. When I was younger I used to love writing story's and novels and loved getting lost in my imagination, hence why I think this blog is a good idea as I will be able to portray myself to you without having the embarrassment that vlogging holds.

This blog will be about what inspires me, whether its youtube tutorials on how to make my hair look curly, tutorials to make my make up look better, or even recipes to share with you on some of my signature dishes such as my Extra Chocolatey Malteser Cake (hopefully you'll love this one!!) but also things that inspire me on a daily or weekly basis. Random things that make me think "wow why don't I try that!".

This year I want to be thankful for the small things that happen and little things that can change my life, as well as the bigger things, and this blog will enable me to capture every moment, and maybe one day, I'll pluck up the courage to vlog! haha!!

Sorry if this post bores you, but I wanted you to know about me and my life ready for future posts.

Please like/ comment and share to your friends.

Much Love,
Hannah
xxx