Tests, tests and more tests- Part 1!

Hello internet!

I hope you are all well and are still enjoying the blog's (sorry if you are not..)

Today's blog isn't so much about inspiration but trying to stay positive..

In October 2013, I was out riding on my old horse Victor, stupidly without a saddle (although I had done this many times before) and we were happily trotting along until a big branch came along which I had to duck under. At this point, Vic trod on a bird and quite frankly was utterly startled at the sound it made, and of course had to spook. But he spooked in the opposite way that I was leaning, causing me to happily slide off and unfortunately land on a tree stump (thanks Vic!!!)

He didn't go very far luckily and there was a gate preventing him to go on the main road thank god, even though I was in excruciating amounts of pain, I was way more concerned about him, as fellow horse owners will tell you, their horse will always come first!

Anyway, fast forward almost 18 months on, and already some endless tests, I am still in excruciating pain and still have no idea what is wrong with me!!

Everyday is a struggle to do normal things, like bend down to put my shoes on. Not just with my back, but with other things too (which I don't want to mention until after we find out what's wrong) but being a cripple at not even 18 is super fun.. NOT!

So today was the day for a spontaneous walk in test. Part one of finding out what is wrong with me. Yes today I went to the haematology department to have a wonderful thing called a blood test. After all the blood tests I've had and the amount of needles stuck in me, I would of thought by now that I would of grown some balls and be used to it by now.. But no... I am still utterly terrified and last time I almost fainted. However today was positive and a real turning point because I did not faint and I did not cry. I am still in shock at how well I handled it haha!!

This may sound utterly stupid to you but after years and years of tests, I don't exactly enjoy it more!!

So part 1 is over thank god.. Just part 2 now... The MRI test... Have any of you had an MRI test before??? I am in all honesty shitting myself purely to the fact I get very claustrophobic (all thanks to a very overcrowded Take That concert in 2011) I have never been the same in small spaces with little room to breath.

I will let you know how I get on with that although I do have to wait another 2 weeks or so, and when the results come back I shall hopefully be able to explain what has been happening!

Until then I may hopefully pluck up the courage to do a vlog.. Yes a VLOG!! Watch this space....

Lots and lots of love,

Hannah
xxx