Hello internet!
I hope you are all well and are still enjoying the blog's (sorry if you are not..)
Today's blog isn't so much about inspiration but trying to stay positive..
In October 2013, I was out riding on my old horse Victor, stupidly without a saddle (although I had done this many times before) and we were happily trotting along until a big branch came along which I had to duck under. At this point, Vic trod on a bird and quite frankly was utterly startled at the sound it made, and of course had to spook. But he spooked in the opposite way that I was leaning, causing me to happily slide off and unfortunately land on a tree stump (thanks Vic!!!)
He didn't go very far luckily and there was a gate preventing him to go on the main road thank god, even though I was in excruciating amounts of pain, I was way more concerned about him, as fellow horse owners will tell you, their horse will always come first!
Anyway, fast forward almost 18 months on, and already some endless tests, I am still in excruciating pain and still have no idea what is wrong with me!!
Everyday is a struggle to do normal things, like bend down to put my shoes on. Not just with my back, but with other things too (which I don't want to mention until after we find out what's wrong) but being a cripple at not even 18 is super fun.. NOT!
So today was the day for a spontaneous walk in test. Part one of finding out what is wrong with me. Yes today I went to the haematology department to have a wonderful thing called a blood test. After all the blood tests I've had and the amount of needles stuck in me, I would of thought by now that I would of grown some balls and be used to it by now.. But no... I am still utterly terrified and last time I almost fainted. However today was positive and a real turning point because I did not faint and I did not cry. I am still in shock at how well I handled it haha!!
This may sound utterly stupid to you but after years and years of tests, I don't exactly enjoy it more!!
So part 1 is over thank god.. Just part 2 now... The MRI test... Have any of you had an MRI test before??? I am in all honesty shitting myself purely to the fact I get very claustrophobic (all thanks to a very overcrowded Take That concert in 2011) I have never been the same in small spaces with little room to breath.
I will let you know how I get on with that although I do have to wait another 2 weeks or so, and when the results come back I shall hopefully be able to explain what has been happening!
Until then I may hopefully pluck up the courage to do a vlog.. Yes a VLOG!! Watch this space....
Lots and lots of love,
Hannah
xxx
Monday, 26 January 2015
Monday, 19 January 2015
Time for a change!
Hello Internet!!
I hope you are all well and I hope you are enjoying these blogs so far. I wanted to do something a bit different in this blog...
It will still be linked into my inspirations but will include one of my favourite things... shopping!!!
Now this isn't about clothes or make up shopping strangely, it is to do with homeware. Yes, homeware!!! I do have a passion for interior design and I love finding lots of trinkets and bits and bobs to place around my room. As I am still living at home, sadly I am only allowed to decorate my room.
My room is a very small box bedroom, so a few years ago I had a built in bed, wardrobe and draws put in to maximise the space. Since then it hasn't been changed, and recently I noticed just how dark this decor made my room, so I convinced my mum to let me get all new bedding and curtains and she said yes!
I just love the colour blue. An awful lot. Not just any blue, but duck egg and baby blue (even my laptop is blue!!!)
This change of heart came about the other day when my mum brought me a new chair (yes, a chair) for my room (my old one was very broken..) and I felt inspired to redecorate completely.
Its soooo comfy and fits in nicely with my room! My mum got this from TK Maxx and it was in the sale! And it is absolutely gorgeous.
So then Mum and I decided to go to Dunelm to have a look at what colour schemes they had.
We found the most gorgeous duck egg blue scheme with birds and bird cages on and my god it makes my room look amazing! I will post those pictures now.
Those are the things I brought yesterday, I hope you liked this blog, as I loved feeling inspired to redecorate and I think it looks so much better than before (just wish I'd of taken a before photo!!)
Let me know what you think and follow me if you enjoy these blogs!!
Thank you, muchos love
Hannah
xxx
I hope you are all well and I hope you are enjoying these blogs so far. I wanted to do something a bit different in this blog...
It will still be linked into my inspirations but will include one of my favourite things... shopping!!!
Now this isn't about clothes or make up shopping strangely, it is to do with homeware. Yes, homeware!!! I do have a passion for interior design and I love finding lots of trinkets and bits and bobs to place around my room. As I am still living at home, sadly I am only allowed to decorate my room.
My room is a very small box bedroom, so a few years ago I had a built in bed, wardrobe and draws put in to maximise the space. Since then it hasn't been changed, and recently I noticed just how dark this decor made my room, so I convinced my mum to let me get all new bedding and curtains and she said yes!
I just love the colour blue. An awful lot. Not just any blue, but duck egg and baby blue (even my laptop is blue!!!)
This change of heart came about the other day when my mum brought me a new chair (yes, a chair) for my room (my old one was very broken..) and I felt inspired to redecorate completely.
So then Mum and I decided to go to Dunelm to have a look at what colour schemes they had.
We found the most gorgeous duck egg blue scheme with birds and bird cages on and my god it makes my room look amazing! I will post those pictures now.
These are the duvet, pillows and bed cover
My whole room (as small as it is) looking spacious and bright!
My lovely curtains!
My cushions that read "a little bird told me..." "... that you love me." which is so so lovely and sweet!
My lovely lamps, also in the sale!!
A lovely little box to put my lotions and potions in!
I must be obsessed with photo frames!! Have far too many, but I had to have this one as was in the sale!
Let me know what you think and follow me if you enjoy these blogs!!
Thank you, muchos love
Hannah
xxx
Monday, 12 January 2015
Inspirations and Positivity...
Hello Internet!
I'm back again.. haha! Thank you to the people who have taken to time to view my blog and read what I have posted, and to the people who have told me that they love what I have written (thank you Mitch!)
This is going to be my first blog to do with my name and meaning behind my blogs: what inspires me. This blog is going to be about how to feel inspired by what YOU do yourself. I'll explain that in a bit more detail as I go on.
I have never been a very confident person at all. I never used to be happy with the way I looked, and from what other people said through out my school life, they weren't particularly happy with my looks either. I don't want to go into too much detail as the fear of being judged for being too open is still daunting at the moment. However, every day presented a new task, whether I could hold back the tears from the never ending comments about my weight and looks or not, was the worst task.
This happened from a very early age. when I was in year 2, so about 7 years old, and has only recently stopped since I have left school and have blocked those negative people out of my life.
Eventually, I thought enough was enough. I was inspired by mainly my Mum and my Grandma. They have both been through their traumatic life experiences and have taught me to except myself for myself and that if I surround myself by positive people, it will outweigh the negative things.
So one night, I stood in front of my mirror, and focused on my flaws. I kept staring, and eventually after 20 minuets, I started to look for the more positive things.
I liked the way I plucked my eyebrows that week.
I liked the way that my hair looked that day.
I liked the way my eyes had changed colour to a more hazel colour.
Eventually I went through all the flaws I thought I had that had been put into my head in the past few years, and began to love myself for what I looked like and that I shouldn't have to change just because I'm not someone's cup of tea. I'm not saying I'm drop dead gorgeous and perfectly pretty, and I know I won't be, but it was a start. A start that I was finally beggining to love myself.
So when I underwent this positive change of view, I went onto YouTube and began discovering YouTubers like Zoella, Tanya, and especially Louise, who a fellow curvy girl like myself, showed me the right way to dress for my figure. And as time went on I found out what I felt good in but made sure that I was still comfortable. They inspired me to love myself further which has been such a challenging task, especially when your brain has tattooed into it that I'd never be loved or accepted for how I looked. This change of lifestyle then gave me the confidence to be happy with who I am, which then enabled me to find my love, Nick.
So what I'm saying is that if you are reading this and are feeling low at the moment. Take a deep breath and look in the mirror. Sometimes the hatred that we receive has blinded us so we can't find our beauty, so by looking in the mirror and being only positive, can help us reveal our own beauty. And if you honestly feel like nothing on the outside is appealing to your eyes, don't worry, that will come in time. Don't be put off, keep staring in that mirror. Because at the end of the day, we are all individually beautiful. Inside and out.
Never let anyone tell you that you aren't good enough. Find the things that inspire you and keep moving forwards.
Much love,
Hannah
xxx
I'm back again.. haha! Thank you to the people who have taken to time to view my blog and read what I have posted, and to the people who have told me that they love what I have written (thank you Mitch!)
This is going to be my first blog to do with my name and meaning behind my blogs: what inspires me. This blog is going to be about how to feel inspired by what YOU do yourself. I'll explain that in a bit more detail as I go on.
I have never been a very confident person at all. I never used to be happy with the way I looked, and from what other people said through out my school life, they weren't particularly happy with my looks either. I don't want to go into too much detail as the fear of being judged for being too open is still daunting at the moment. However, every day presented a new task, whether I could hold back the tears from the never ending comments about my weight and looks or not, was the worst task.
This happened from a very early age. when I was in year 2, so about 7 years old, and has only recently stopped since I have left school and have blocked those negative people out of my life.
Eventually, I thought enough was enough. I was inspired by mainly my Mum and my Grandma. They have both been through their traumatic life experiences and have taught me to except myself for myself and that if I surround myself by positive people, it will outweigh the negative things.
So one night, I stood in front of my mirror, and focused on my flaws. I kept staring, and eventually after 20 minuets, I started to look for the more positive things.
I liked the way I plucked my eyebrows that week.
I liked the way that my hair looked that day.
I liked the way my eyes had changed colour to a more hazel colour.
Eventually I went through all the flaws I thought I had that had been put into my head in the past few years, and began to love myself for what I looked like and that I shouldn't have to change just because I'm not someone's cup of tea. I'm not saying I'm drop dead gorgeous and perfectly pretty, and I know I won't be, but it was a start. A start that I was finally beggining to love myself.
So when I underwent this positive change of view, I went onto YouTube and began discovering YouTubers like Zoella, Tanya, and especially Louise, who a fellow curvy girl like myself, showed me the right way to dress for my figure. And as time went on I found out what I felt good in but made sure that I was still comfortable. They inspired me to love myself further which has been such a challenging task, especially when your brain has tattooed into it that I'd never be loved or accepted for how I looked. This change of lifestyle then gave me the confidence to be happy with who I am, which then enabled me to find my love, Nick.
So what I'm saying is that if you are reading this and are feeling low at the moment. Take a deep breath and look in the mirror. Sometimes the hatred that we receive has blinded us so we can't find our beauty, so by looking in the mirror and being only positive, can help us reveal our own beauty. And if you honestly feel like nothing on the outside is appealing to your eyes, don't worry, that will come in time. Don't be put off, keep staring in that mirror. Because at the end of the day, we are all individually beautiful. Inside and out.
Never let anyone tell you that you aren't good enough. Find the things that inspire you and keep moving forwards.
Much love,
Hannah
xxx
Sunday, 4 January 2015
Introductions are in order...
Hello internet!
I have decided after much thought, that I should start a blog. Now yes this is a thing that most people do just to "follow the crowd" however I have been thinking about it for a while and just never had the creativity or means to start one.
2015 is upon us, and 2014 was a heck of a learning curve for me. My name is Hannah and I am currently 17 years old. In 2014 I had to grow up very quickly and I dealt with all kinds of stress (some making me rather ill). My life changed dramatically and quickly, and nothing seemed to stay the same, which for me, a girl used to consistency, was a big shock to the system. I had to loose my two best friends, Victor, who I had for almost 3 years and Poppy, who I had for almost a year. Yes they were horses, but they were my rocks. They were there for me when certain people weren't. They took my mind off the changes and growing up. They were mainly sold due to my bad back from falling off Victor which the problem is yet to be resolved, a year later!
In my past year of growing up, I've made more friends who I am very close to, but have also come close to friends I had drifted apart from. The main one being my best friend Molly. She is horse-mad like myself, and we used to do everything together before we parted ways when I sold my horses. Later in 2014, end of September time, Molly helped me make the spontaneous decision of quitting my apprenticeship and going to college to fulfil a course which I would enjoy, Animal Management. I have met a small group of friends in this course who are always there for me, a mix of boys and girls, and we are all a very close bunch which is lovely as I have never had that before. So thank you Molly for your crazy, encouraging words and enabling me to be the happiest I have been this past year.
With last year being very difficult (especially from August onwards), I wouldn't of been anywhere without my lovely boyfriend Nick, whom I have been with for over a year now. We are two peas in a pod and he is my best friend as well as my loved one and I will be eternally grateful for his help.
Anyway now that mushy boring stuff is out of the way...
I have always wanted to vlog. Recently I have become much more into beauty and the wonders that make up can offer and also how to accept myself and love myself and my flaws!!! However I cannot stand the thought of filming myself as I know I would say something very goofy, which is why I have decided to write down my feelings. When I was younger I used to love writing story's and novels and loved getting lost in my imagination, hence why I think this blog is a good idea as I will be able to portray myself to you without having the embarrassment that vlogging holds.
This blog will be about what inspires me, whether its youtube tutorials on how to make my hair look curly, tutorials to make my make up look better, or even recipes to share with you on some of my signature dishes such as my Extra Chocolatey Malteser Cake (hopefully you'll love this one!!) but also things that inspire me on a daily or weekly basis. Random things that make me think "wow why don't I try that!".
This year I want to be thankful for the small things that happen and little things that can change my life, as well as the bigger things, and this blog will enable me to capture every moment, and maybe one day, I'll pluck up the courage to vlog! haha!!
Sorry if this post bores you, but I wanted you to know about me and my life ready for future posts.
Please like/ comment and share to your friends.
Much Love,
Hannah
xxx
I have decided after much thought, that I should start a blog. Now yes this is a thing that most people do just to "follow the crowd" however I have been thinking about it for a while and just never had the creativity or means to start one.
2015 is upon us, and 2014 was a heck of a learning curve for me. My name is Hannah and I am currently 17 years old. In 2014 I had to grow up very quickly and I dealt with all kinds of stress (some making me rather ill). My life changed dramatically and quickly, and nothing seemed to stay the same, which for me, a girl used to consistency, was a big shock to the system. I had to loose my two best friends, Victor, who I had for almost 3 years and Poppy, who I had for almost a year. Yes they were horses, but they were my rocks. They were there for me when certain people weren't. They took my mind off the changes and growing up. They were mainly sold due to my bad back from falling off Victor which the problem is yet to be resolved, a year later!
In my past year of growing up, I've made more friends who I am very close to, but have also come close to friends I had drifted apart from. The main one being my best friend Molly. She is horse-mad like myself, and we used to do everything together before we parted ways when I sold my horses. Later in 2014, end of September time, Molly helped me make the spontaneous decision of quitting my apprenticeship and going to college to fulfil a course which I would enjoy, Animal Management. I have met a small group of friends in this course who are always there for me, a mix of boys and girls, and we are all a very close bunch which is lovely as I have never had that before. So thank you Molly for your crazy, encouraging words and enabling me to be the happiest I have been this past year.
With last year being very difficult (especially from August onwards), I wouldn't of been anywhere without my lovely boyfriend Nick, whom I have been with for over a year now. We are two peas in a pod and he is my best friend as well as my loved one and I will be eternally grateful for his help.
Anyway now that mushy boring stuff is out of the way...
I have always wanted to vlog. Recently I have become much more into beauty and the wonders that make up can offer and also how to accept myself and love myself and my flaws!!! However I cannot stand the thought of filming myself as I know I would say something very goofy, which is why I have decided to write down my feelings. When I was younger I used to love writing story's and novels and loved getting lost in my imagination, hence why I think this blog is a good idea as I will be able to portray myself to you without having the embarrassment that vlogging holds.
This blog will be about what inspires me, whether its youtube tutorials on how to make my hair look curly, tutorials to make my make up look better, or even recipes to share with you on some of my signature dishes such as my Extra Chocolatey Malteser Cake (hopefully you'll love this one!!) but also things that inspire me on a daily or weekly basis. Random things that make me think "wow why don't I try that!".
This year I want to be thankful for the small things that happen and little things that can change my life, as well as the bigger things, and this blog will enable me to capture every moment, and maybe one day, I'll pluck up the courage to vlog! haha!!
Sorry if this post bores you, but I wanted you to know about me and my life ready for future posts.
Please like/ comment and share to your friends.
Much Love,
Hannah
xxx
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