Inspirations and Positivity...

Hello Internet!

I'm back again.. haha! Thank you to the people who have taken to time to view my blog and read what I have posted, and to the people who have told me that they love what I have written (thank you Mitch!)

This is going to be my first blog to do with my name and meaning behind my blogs: what inspires me. This blog is going to be about how to feel inspired by what YOU do yourself. I'll explain that in a bit more detail as I go on.

I have never been a very confident person at all. I never used to be happy with the way I looked, and from what other people said through out my school life, they weren't particularly happy with my looks either. I don't want to go into too much detail as the fear of being judged for being too open is still daunting at the moment. However, every day presented a new task, whether I could hold back the tears from the never ending comments about my weight and looks or not, was the worst task.

This happened from a very early age. when I was in year 2, so about 7 years old, and has only recently stopped since I have left school and have blocked those negative people out of my life.

Eventually, I thought enough was enough. I was inspired by mainly my Mum and my Grandma. They have both been through their traumatic life experiences and have taught me to except myself for myself and that if I surround myself by positive people, it will outweigh the negative things.

So one night, I stood in front of my mirror, and focused on my flaws. I kept staring, and eventually after 20 minuets, I started to look for the more positive things.
I liked the way I plucked my eyebrows that week.
I liked the way that my hair looked that day.
I liked the way my eyes had changed colour to a more hazel colour.
Eventually I went through all the flaws I thought I had that had been put into my head in the past few years, and began to love myself for what I looked like and that I shouldn't have to change just because I'm not someone's cup of tea. I'm not saying I'm drop dead gorgeous and perfectly pretty, and I know I won't be, but it was a start. A start that I was finally beggining to love myself.

So when I underwent this positive change of view, I went onto YouTube and began discovering YouTubers like Zoella, Tanya, and especially Louise, who a fellow curvy girl like myself, showed me the right way to dress for my figure. And as time went on I found out what I felt good in but made sure that I was still comfortable. They inspired me to love myself further which has been such a challenging task, especially when your brain has tattooed into it that I'd never be loved or accepted for how I looked. This change of lifestyle then gave me the confidence to be happy with who I am, which then enabled me to find my love, Nick.

So what I'm saying is that if you are reading this and are feeling low at the moment. Take a deep breath and look in the mirror. Sometimes the hatred that we receive has blinded us so we can't find our beauty, so by looking in the mirror and being only positive, can help us reveal our own beauty. And if you honestly feel like nothing on the outside is appealing to your eyes, don't worry, that will come in time. Don't be put off, keep staring in that mirror. Because at the end of the day, we are all individually beautiful. Inside and out.

Never let anyone tell you that you aren't good enough. Find the things that inspire you and keep moving forwards.

Much love,
Hannah
xxx